The Lives We Lead are Our Own

I've been in a state of loss recently. That doesn't make any sense. But I'll just go on. I've been wondering why I have been letting so many people sway my decisions from one choice to the next. Instead of standing my ground, I tend to let people persuade me otherwise. Why is this? Isn't it said that only we ourselves can trully make us happy? We are our own future, therefore, shouldn't we trust in ourselves and the choices we make? I'm constantly worrying about what other people will think about a decision that I am making about my life. Why did I decide to go into nursing? Because my Dad persuaded me to. I'm not saying that I am regretting my decision, not in the slightest? But, honestly, when will I grow up and start thinking for myself? The time is now. In a biography about Steig Larsson, author of "The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo," called "The Steig Larsson Story," John-Henri Holmberg says, "The idea that someone else should make decisions for you, or prevent you from making your own, was immoral in Steig's judgement." This biography is presented in a book that I am reading right now called "The Tattooed Girl." This particular part of the book struck a cord with me. I am constantly worrying about what others think. Well, I'm not going to disgree with Steig Larsson's judgment on that one. Steig Larsson is probably one of the most inspiring figures I have stumbled upon thus far. His views have altered my thought process a bit, have inspired me to think more deeply and to feel more fully. The power of books are inumerable. I will stand strong for my actions, feelings, and views.

Presence

Wow, it has been a while since I've written a post on this blog. Perhaps because I've been busy as well as a bit lazy. I haven't practiced Yoga in about 2 weeks besides a good bedtime stretch. Maybe it's because I feel so burnt out from a long semester full of difficult classes and stress. I have been reading. Not much, but it is some. So, you may be asking yourself, why am I writing today if I haven't been practicing my Yoga? Well, Yoga isn't always about the physical aspect. I want to remind everyone, especially myself, that it is so important and so helpful to stay in the present moment throughout the day. Enjoy life, experience joy, sorrow, pleasure, pain, all without the suffering. We agonize over things that have not happen and may never happen at all. Each and every one of us can recognize this within ourselves.
Namaste