Saturday, November 27, 2010

Another Life Lesson

A few weeks ago I found myself in a bit of a ... situation. Well, the jist of it went like this. I was upset at work, said I hated someone, and it got back to that person. Well, there are a few lessons that can be learned from this. One, don't bitch about people when you are at work. Two, don't trust your coworkers. They may seem nice, but they can go behind your back and stab you twenty times without getting a scratch themselves. I knew I messed up. I was upset with one of the nurses at work, said more than I should have (ie I hate her, which I don't), she was told by a coworker who overheard me saying this. When I found out that she now knew what I had said, I knew I was in a hole. For the whole weekend afterwards I was upset. Thank goodness I don't work with her a lot. But I was dreading the day that I would be working with her. Well, that day was yesterday. I had no idea what to do about this situation, but I decided not to mention it. Not because I wanted to pretend that it never happened, but more because leaving something the way it is will spread a fire less. So, I left it. I was nice to her. I worked hard, I was happy to do anything she asked. That one day was just a very bad day for me. Nothing that I had said was meant, but you know, words hurt people. You can't take back a sentence. Once it's out there, it's out there. I found that this woman, that I was not very fond of is an extremely wonderful nurse who cares deeply for her patients. The reason she tells me to do things ALL the time (and although it can be annoying, MOST of the time she has a point) is because it is for the better for the patient. I guess she decided to get over the comment that I made or just act professional and brush it off, but she was very nice to me too. Things could have been much much worse that they were last night. We actually found that we work together very well. I don't dislike her in any way. She is a great nurse. I hope to be like her one day. I think she was more worried about what I thought of her, than being angry with what I had said. It made me feel really really bad. We live and we learn. I made a mistake, I didn't think before I spoke. After work last night I said goodbye to her and she told me how wonderful it was to work with me. That was something I was not expecting from her, but it was really nice to hear. There are a few lessons to learn from this. One, think before you speak. Two, people who you think you dislike may end up getting along with you the best. My dad said, "A lot of times the people you punch in the face end up being your best friend."
Think about it.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Out of Practice, Out of Mind

We've all heard the well-known saying "Out of sight, out of mind." Well, this can also go with Yoga and the practice of Yoga. It's been a while since I've done Yoga (1 week is quite a long time in my mind), so I decided to stop by the yoga studio that I go to. I was half an hour late to my class but there was only my instructor in the room and she was doing her own practice. She said that I could join her for the last half hour that she had. So I did. Basically she did her thing, and I did mine and then follwed along with her. It was the first time I've done something like that, and it was very different. I honestly didn't know what to do with myself. It's been so long since I've actually done my OWN practice that I was confused as to what I should be doing. But I did it. When I say out of practice, out of mind, you probably know what I'm talking about. If we don't keep up our Yoga practice, or any practice at all, then we start to forget things. During this follow-along yoga practice, I did a wheel pose and then countered it with Fish Pose. Well, for a moment, I forgot how to even do fish pose. I eventually remembered, but I realized that I have to keep practicing. I need to retain that fluid movement, and I need to keep my body strong. I love my practice, and I don't want to give it up. I practiced for about half an hour, but I felt so good afterwards. Love. That's all that comes to mind at this moment.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Isolation in Anger

Revenge? Revenge is weak. So why do people think that getting back at people will make then happy? I don't know? How do I know that revenge is wrong? Isaac Friedmann said "forgiveness is the sweetest revenge." And isn't it true? If the only person that can make you angry, or sad, or happy, is YOU, then of course it applies the same way for everyone else. Forgiveness is key. How do we find forgiveness? We must start with nonjudgement. I'm not saying that I'm perfect at this. I'm not even GOOD at it, but the first step is to be aware. If everyone thought like this, the world would be perfect, but its not. So how do we get by without strangling ourselves or someone else? We keep open minds. Anger is NEVER the answer. No matter how right it may seem in the moment, it will leave a bad taste in your mouth. Anger is something that one experiences alone. It's a cruel feeling that wears people down, makes them thin and old. If someone does something to spite you, to make you angry, should you spat back at them? Or maybe be the bigger person? Brush it off you're shoulders, move on. "The stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naive forgive and forget; the wise forgive, but do not forget." -Thomas Szasz. This quote has a lot to say. Forgiveness doesn't mean that we need to go through the process again, we can learn from our situations. "Resentments are burdens we don't need to carry."